Well, a boy can dream. I’ve always liked Al. Behind that stiff exterior lies a man with a good sense of humor and a good head on his shoulders. I’m not going to rehash the travesty that was the election of 2000; suffice it to say that the past eight years would have been infinitely better for our country had Gore been in charge.
Now there is an ever-so-slim hope that he might yet mount a white horse, Nobel Prize medallion around his neck, sun block on his face to filter out the effects of ozone depletion, and ride to the rescue of the Democratic Party.
It looks like we may need it.
Not that we don’t have two good candidates -- it’s just that the longer they stay in the arena, flailing away like punch-drunk prizefighters, the more battered and bloodied and uglier they become.
On the one hand we have Barack Obama, whose ability to inspire is equaled only by what we don’t know about him. The Rev. Jeremiah Wright affair should have been a wake-up call, at 3 a.m. or otherwise. Not the obnoxious things Wright said. Not the fine speech Obama gave on race relations. But the fact that Obama knew it was coming, had known it for a year, and did nothing to nip it in the bud. "If Barack gets past the primary," Rev. Wright told the New York Times in April 2007, "he might have to publicly distance himself from me. I said it to Barack personally, and he said yeah, that might have to happen."
So my question is, what else does Barack know is coming? What other distancing does he have backup plans for? (I am just a tad uneasy about this Tony Rezko trial, for example.) Obama is an interesting figure. He’s bright, he’s personable, he's full of potential. But I fear he could also be full of surprises. After all, he’s a politician (which will come as a shock to those of you who think he’s the Second Coming of Kennedy). Politicians spin things for the best, and they hide things they think might hurt them.
Speaking as a Democrat, it matters when these things rear their heads and hurt us as a party. (Is there a New York governor in the house?!)
Which brings us to Hillary Clinton, who has been well-vetted, and who we know, warts and all. Obama, who began this year on a pedestal, has nowhere to go but down. Clinton, who has endured often unfair sniping for almost two decades, has nowhere to go but up.
But that doesn’t mean she’s going anywhere, her campaign having blown it in the dozen or so states immediately following Super Tuesday, creating a pledged delegate shortfall that she can’t overcome without a miracle. (As Bill recently said, “It's the caucuses that have been killing us.”)
That won’t keep her from trying, of course. She plans on winning the nomination -- if not this time, then perhaps in 2012. It has been suggested, and not without some plausibility, that Clinton would rather see Obama lose the general election to John McCain than win it. This would, after all, make her the frontrunner for the party’s nomination four years hence, when Americans would be really, really, REALLY tired of Republican rule.
Is she that ambitious? I’d like to think not, but I don’t know. What I do know is that they’ll probably have to carry her out of the Denver convention in a straight jacket to get her to give up the fight. She has been waiting all her life for this, folks, and will not go gently into that good night.
Clinton’s recent approach to winning has been called the “Tonya Harding strategy” -- bash him on the kneecap and hope for the best. And the things that might still make her the nominee -- Obama’s inexperience or skeletons in his closet or a gaffe of some kind -- are the same things that the Republicans are counting on to help them win in November. So her strategy dovetails into their strategy, which is to create the perception that Obama is not ready to be president. This is not helped, of course, by anything that Obama might do to confirm that he is unprepared or too risky to take a chance on.
So we have a situation where two candidates, who are increasingly polarizing supporters on the other side -- witness the Carville/Richardson “Judas” dust-up -- will arrive in Denver without enough pledged delegates to win the nomination.
The superdelegates will have to come up with something, and I am not alone in wondering if Gore might be the answer. Back in the old days, conventions would sometimes select a dark horse on the second, third, fourth, or even later ballots.
Al Gore is hardly a dark horse. He is well known, experienced, a proven popular vote-getter, and more respected today than he was eight years ago. Al could mount that white horse, ride in to unite the party, and gain his rightful place in the Oval Office.
It probably won’t happen, of course, because politics is not like the movies. It is not like fiction. It is stranger.
I have decided to embrace my inner curmudgeon and, from time to time, provide a list of some things that are annoying me. If you disagree with my choices, then you are annoying me also. Here, in reverse order of blood boilage, are today's nominees:
5. High fructose corn syrup. Does it have to be put into everything? (Well, apparently, yes.) Is it possible that there are people who might not want the empty calories, or who, if they are willing to risk the calories, might want the taste of real sugar? Here in Arizona you can get Coca-Cola made in Mexico with cane sugar; it tastes like Coke did when I was a kid, before the company switched to corn syrup in the US. . . Try finding a barbeque sauce, or a salad dressing, or even a can of soup or loaf of bread at your average supermarket that does not have corn syrup in it. It will be a miracle, and you should build a shrine.
4. Muzak. The other day I was at the dentist’s office and heard, in treacly, instrumental form, “Give me the beat boys/And free my soul/I wanna get lost in your rock and roll/And drift away.” Could there be a more grotesque irony? Satan himself could not have conjured up anything "better" to play in the waiting room in Hell. This beat didn't get me lost in anything, except laughter and a certain degree of existential despair.
3. Hotels where the windows are sealed shut. God forbid anyone would want some fresh air, especially if the place has been renovated and the carpeting, paint, and luxurious particle board furnishings are outgassing their share of “sick building syndrome” fumes. What does the management think we’re going to do? Jump out the window when we get the bill?
2. Store loyalty cards. So now I have to carry a card for every supermarket I frequent if I want to get the sale price on merchandise at checkout. Ooh, I’m a member of the “Safeway Club.” How nice of Safeway to want to keep track of everything I have purchased, feed it into their computer, and target me with mailings. Why, it even tells the checker my name so they can add that "personal" touch and mispronounce it as they thank me for my purchase. (Sheesh, people, "Arenson" is not rocket science. It's "Air-in-sun," not "Arn-eson" or "Air-EN-son" or that pronunciation of people who just don't try, "Anderson.") Privacy? People have forgotten that one of the treasures of being an American is your ability to be anonymous. Think I'm paranoid? Read this and this and this. 1. Ads for TV programs inserted into other TV programs. Marge Simpson recently asked: “Can’t anyone just watch the show they’re watching?” Well, can’t we? It started with those jarring little logos that networks show on the bottom right of the screen. Now it has gotten way out of hand -- little people walking onto the screen amid flashing graphics to advertise their upcoming shows. Fans of Kids in the Hall will understand when I say "I want to crush their heads." Maybe in this age of multitasking and multimedia people are used to absorbing endless quantities of visual clutter. I want to throw a brick at the television.
Flame me all you want but I am here to make the point again: We Americans must do SOMETHING to guarantee access to health care for all, including those with preexisting conditions.
Dr. Terry Hamblin recently posted to his blog about problems with the UK's public health service, the NHS. (Follow this link and search for "Travails of the NHS.") He describes the messes that can be created when bureaucrats, including committees of doctors, attempt to decide on treatment without expert knowledge. If it were not so sad it would be funny: Terry quotes one doctor who read about CLL briefly and said: "I have been reading about this subject for two hours. I am now an expert in the condition." What is the take-home lesson here? I think it is pretty clear: The best standard of care requires that doctors with (genuine) expertise in a given condition be allowed to make the decisions.
But a couple of those who posted comments about Terry's piece drew another lesson, seen through the filter of their myopic glasses: "Cautionary tales such as this make me oppose national health systems being imposed in the US, " wrote one. "I'm not sure why there is such a hue and cry over the 'failure' of the American health care system when it is in many cases the envy of the world. . . . Changing to a bureaucratic-run system will be made at the peril of the patient." Hmm. Somehow American veterans have managed to survive the bureaucracy at VA hospitals, and somehow elderly Americans have managed to cope with Medicare without keeling over in large numbers.
But those are asides. The essential point is this: The failures of bureaucracy do not mean that the US should not have a health care system that provides access to all. Access to health care is a moral issue independent of the manner in which it is instituted.
And bureaucracy is not the province of government-run care alone: We have all heard of -- and indeed, many of us have experienced -- cases in which bureaucrats working for health insurance companies in the US make ridiculous calls. They deny treatment, refuse to approve the right treatment, or reject an appropriate test. (Ask the family of Nataline Sarkisyan, or ask Hilary Skvov and then read this.) Indeed, the bozos making these decisions in the US often have no medical training at all; their job is counting beans. They could read about a given condition for two hours and still not know their asses from a hole in the ground, nor would they care. (A committee of doctors -- we should be so lucky!) In America, the fox guards the henhouse. The quality of our care may be excellent but getting access to it is another matter entirely -- even if you have insurance.
Ignorance is ignorance, be it in the public or private sectors. When it comes to patient care, doctors should be calling the shots. Coming up with a fair, workable system may be tricky but it is not impossible. We sent men to the moon, ferchrissakes. Americans want as much freedom of choice as possible, and as light a regulatory touch as possible, but they also want to be able to get the care they need. I have enough faith in my country to believe that we can finesse these matters and devise a system that works reasonably well for all.
None of this takes away from the fact that access to health care is a moral right in a civilized society. I will never forget the post I saw from a CLL patient who lost his job because of his condition and, having also lost his health care, was trying to combat his CLL with herbs. I am almost as sick and tired of those who use "bureaucracy" as an excuse to deny their fellow citizens coverage as I am of CLL.
If we’re smart, we CLLers look down the road and think ahead. A question we should be prepared to answer is this: Might I need a stem cell transplant at some point, or is there a reasonable possibility that I can ride this thing out without one?
Chances are, if you are younger than 60 and have unmutated chronic lymphocytic leukemia, you might well need a transplant if you want to become the eccentric old codger you were meant to be. I, for one, look forward to spending my 80s with Marilyn and too many cats while yelling at kids to get off my lawn. I have no intention of letting CLL interfere with those golden years.
Further signs that you might need a transplant -- and, by the way, transplants are now being done on patients well into their 60s if they are in otherwise good health -- are these: Risky abnormalities per FISH test, such as 17p, 11q, and perhaps Trisomy 12; ZAP-70 and/or CD38 positivity; clinical symptoms that show disease progression on many fronts; relapse from treatment, especially after a shorter-than-average remission.
For such young-uns with uncooperative CLL, the stem cell, or bone marrow, transplant is a light at the end of the tunnel. For some, this light may have the characteristics of an oncoming train, but I prefer to look at it as a potential cure.
Harvey ponders the path to success
Anyone looking down this road should keep up with Harvey’s Journal at CLL Topics. Harvey is a somewhat hypothetical fellow who is about to undergo a cord blood transplant. A recent journal entry, Planning for Success, describes the logic of achieving a CR ("complete response") prior to transplant, as well as the ways in which our treatment choices over time can reduce our ability to achieve that CR. The facts presented led to a little surprise and consternation among some readers.
Chaya Venkat, the Topics writer who, like Elwood P. Dowd, enjoys the delusion that there is a Harvey in the house, cites a study from the Fred Hutchinson Cancer Center. It shows that entering a transplant with bulky disease puts you at a disadvantage: after two years, 14% of patients with lymph nodes less than 5 cm at transplant had relapsed, compared to 52% of those with nodes greater than 5 cm. She further cites another study from the Hutch, albeit with a small sample, showing that, in her words, “the risk of relapse in CLL patients going into the transplant with full blown CR was zero, none, nada.” If you think about it, that makes sense: the less CLL the new immune system has to fight, the better the odds of achieving a successful graft vs. leukemia effect.
Chaya also provides data from a 2005 study by MD Anderson, which I have discussed in the past and which can be found in detail here. It shows the CR rates in previously treated patients who are given FCR, which is today’s gold standard of chemotherapy. While 70% of those using FCR as their first treatment get a CR, that number drops in previously treated patients: to 29% in those who have used single-agent Rituxan; to 28% in those who have used an alkalyting agent such as chlorambucil or cyclophosphamide; to 24% among those who have used fludarabine and cyclophosphamide together. Table 3 of the study has details on fludarabine sensitivity: 31% of those considered sensitive achieved CRs, as opposed to just 5% of those who were refractory to the drug. (A note here: Only seven patients in the study had used single-agent Rituxan. That's not a huge sample but it's the only one we've got.)
So what is a patient -- especially one who thinks they might need a transplant one day -- to do?
The treatment conundrum
The question of which treatments to have, and in what order to have them, is much debated among patients -- I have written my share about it in this blog -- as well as their doctors. As Dr. Terry Hamblin has pointed out, the studies are just not there to show us what combination, and in what order, leads to the longest overall survival. Chaya delineates the problem as it relates to transplant: “Getting that CR ahead of the transplant may prove to be more difficult than you thought. Waiting too long to make the transplant decision may end up costing you. If you become a truly refractory 'salvage' case, it may not be possible for you to get a good remission no matter what you try. Too few bullets left, and too strong an enemy, the window of opportunity to get a successful transplant may not last forever.”
Dr. John Byrd has been quoted as saying that your first treatment is the most important because your first remission will be your best. And if transplant success were the foremost goal, then we would all have transplants following our first treatment, and we would all insure that our first treatment is the one that gives us the best chance of a CR.
Indeed, the day may come when 1) we can predict a person's disease accurately enough, and 2) transplants are safe enough, to make that a routine course of action for those with aggressive disease.
But we are not there yet, and transplants are still risky: There is a 20% chance that a transplant will shorten your life and another 20% chance of relapse, those statistics according to UK CLL expert Dr. Andrew Pettitt. (The good news, according to Pettitt, is that 60% are successful.) With the possible exception of 17p-deleted patients, those with the most aggressive CLL, most top doctors hesitate to recommend a transplant at first remission. They are more commonly recommended at second remission in patients with rather aggressive -- perhaps I should say "assertive" -- disease. Still other doctors, those who do not see the transplant glass as half full, recommend transplants only as a last resort, after any number of therapies have been tried. In all these instances, treatment with something as conditioning for the transplant will be required.
And if there is one thing we do know -- just look at that MD Anderson data -- it is that treatment with any drug(s) sets up a disease resistance situation where second treatment is likely to be less effective. Acceptable (?) risks
So, if we assume that for most of us a transplant at the outset is too risky but may become a desirable risk later, how do we plan? How do we still get treated but avoid becoming salvage patients on whom nothing really works?
There are a couple of points worth noting here:
First, there is no guarantee of getting a CR with your first treatment, even if you use FCR. Thirty percent fail to get a CR in such cases.
Second, according to MDA, 25% of pretreated patients achieve a CR with FCR. Who does the best? Single-agent Rituxan users (29%) and the fludarabine sensitive (31%).
How do you know how you will respond? You don't, but we can hazard a couple of guesses. If you are 17p deleted, you will have a harder time getting a CR. Those with huge lymph nodes may have trouble since it is that much harder to get rid of them. The NCI guidelines say you don't need to treat lymph nodes until they achieve a mass of 10 cm, but as a practical matter many patients report problems reducing nodes that big to an acceptable size. Keep that in mind if you, like me, have a largely node-centered disease (which is, by the way, a trademark of the 11q deletion).
Speaking of nodes, let us recall the data from the Hutch: 14% with nodes of less than 5 cm relapsed. 52% relapsed whose nodes were greater than 5 cm.
Given the risks of a transplant, and the fact that you may be able to keep the disease at bay for many years with treatment, does this data suggest what might be the reasonable standard, the compromise point, which one should aim for? In other words, preserving your ability, to the best of your ability, to reduce your nodes to below 5 cm (and perhaps to get a CR to boot)?
I think "yes" is a reasonable conclusion. I also think the data suggest that two things will be of particular help in preserving this ability: using Rituxan as your treatment of choice and maintaining your sensitivity to fludarabine.
(As always, my opinions are my own: There are wiser people who may well disagree with me. You could be reading the ravings of a madman here; remember that propensity for copious quantities of cats.)
The treatment blue plate special
Harvey the Hypothetical had six years of good quality of life (QOL) with the “soft glove” monoclonal antibodies Rituxan and HuMax-CD20 -- especially helpful as he had no donor match and had to wait until cord blood transplants could be made reasonably safe.
Rituxan and HuMax are not free lunches, as Chaya points out, but I think they at least qualify as the blue plate special. To paraphrase Churchill, they are the worst drugs to use, except for all the others. These monoclonals can plug the holes in the dike without being as immunosuppressive as the alternatives, without being mutagenic, and without building quite so much disease resistance. (Cases of especially aggressive disease, such as the 17p deleted, are the exception here. Studies suggest that 17p-deleted CLL clones are pretty resistant to Rituxan, as well as to fludarabine; in these cases, the start-with-big-guns then straight-to-transplant-at-remission plan makes some sense.)
The MDA data show a CR of only 5% for the fludarabine refractory. It is possible to become fludarabine refractory after your first treatment, although you may luck out and respond two, three, or more times. In the 2004 ASH Education Book, Dr. Byrd noted that "at the time of relapse from initial response to fludarabine, 40% can be retreated and will respond again to the same regimen." He went on to say that "ultimately, virtually all CLL patients who are treated become fludarabine-refractory."(It is generally accepted, by the way, that if you achieve a long remission the first time, your chances of a good response the second time are improved.)
So, are you better off playing for time by using single-agent Rituxan? Or should you start your treatment career with FCR, which obviously carries a greater risk of making you fludarabine refractory? (Of course, even Rituxan can make your disease somewhat resistant to fludarabine; CLL is not black and white. Our stock in trade is shades of gray.)
Let's look a little further at the MDA study: Let's add together the percentage who got either a CR or an NPR (nodular partial remission -- patients with no swollen lymph nodes who would have achieved a CR but for some nodules in the bone marrow). The responses were as follows: 58% in Rituxan users; 40% in those who had alkalyting agents; 39% in the FC group; 48% in the fludarabine-sensitive group; and just 16% among the fludarabine refractory.
The takeaway here is that those who did best -- and now we're talking half of previously-treated patients that managed to get rid of those pesky nodes -- were those who had used single-agent Rituxan and those who were fludarabine sensitive.
So, if I were playing the odds, using Rituxan while trying to preserve fludarabine sensitivity by not using it is the way I would go. In fact, it is the way I had been going, until AIHA intervened and forced me to use cyclophosphamide and a touch of vincristine. (Not everyone should play it this way; Rituxan is still a soft-glove treatment and if you arrive at the treatment door needing something stronger to deal with the problems your disease is handing you, by all means use it.)
It is important to note that your previous treatment is not the only factor that influences your ability to get a CR or NPR with FCR. Do read the MDA article, which I linked to above; it goes into other significant factors, including age, stage, and number of previous treatments. For example, your chance of a CR with FCR is reduced significantly if you have had more than two previous treatments. (Does single-agent Rituxan, with its lighter touch, carry the same weight as other treatments, I wonder?)
Type A personalities, welcome to the seventh circle of hell
We can parse the data all we want, but it's important to remember that what Rowan and Martin of TV's Laugh In called the “fickle finger of fate” is also at play here. Harvey, for example, was not particularly fludarabine-sensitive out of the gate, while many patients are. None of us knows how we are likely to respond to drugs, despite what statistics may tell us.
The good news is that Harvey managed to get close to a CR with Revlimid, got those nodes down to well under 5 cm, which is also the cutoff point at which Campath will work on nodes. Since we’re talking hypotheticals here, he perhaps could have followed up with Campath to clear the nodes further, though this sets up a risk of immunosuppression, infection, and viral reactivation. HDMP was another option that he did not use that might have shrunk the nodes significantly. He could have opted for R-CHOP (or H-CHOP) or Hyper-CVAD. (One consideration, of course, is that the more immunosuppressive, toxic drugs you use to nuke the CLL with, the greater the chances of a side effect or complication. And transplants are complicated enough as it is.)
My point is that there are several ways to search for that node reduction and/or CR when the time comes (and, like all CLL treatments, each comes with its risks and rewards). And in the interim I think there is a reasonable middle ground -- exactly the ground Harvey has trod. He got close to a CR after six years of good QOL with monoclonals, and he saved fludarabine for the end. That last gamble didn't work out as well as he hoped, but welcome to CLL.
Hindsight is 20/20: At the beginning of his CLL career, Harvey had only the favorable 13q deletion and was IgVH mutated to boot, so it seemed his disease course would be rather indolent, in which case a transplant seemed unthinkable. It was only as time went on and clonal evolution to 11q occurred and his mutated status proved less significant than problematic clinical symptoms that the transplant option became more attractive. This concept -- “things can change” -- is important to keep in mind. It bolsters Chaya’s argument that one should not wait too long; I can tell you from personal experience, as well as the experience of many patients I know, that once the disease starts to progress, things do not get better. They get worse.
One of the biggest challenges of living with the "new normal" of CLL is that we are forever making decisions without knowing what our disease will do, or what the drugs will do. This is not a disease for Type A personalities. Fortunately, I have always been more of a roll-with-the-punches type of guy. My view is that we patients are dealing in real time, and we make the best choices we can. We should not fault ourselves for making one choice and then finding out that "had I known what I could not possibly have known I might have done things differently."
Chaya's journal entry gives us good food for thought. There is no such thing as a CLL treatment that is risk free or that will not have consequences down the road. No matter what you do, there is no treatment that will not make retreatment more difficult. It is all a matter of balancing the risks and the rewards, playing the odds, and a little luck.
And speaking of which, good luck to Harvey as he heads north to a cure! I confess to having seen him myself a few times. Must be chemo brain . . .
February 2014 in Sedona, AZ, slimmed down to 144 lbs.
My name is David Arenson and I have chronic lymphocytic leukemia. It may kill me. Then again, it may not. Life is full of surprises, although I must admit that this is not the sort of cliffhanger that I had in mind for my 50s.
Until a few years ago, like most people, I had assumed death and disease were the province of old age, not the prime of life. I was just an average person health-wise, and feeling rather fine, thank you. I passed by the occasional wheelchair-bound person or bald-headed chemotherapy patient and didn't think that sort of thing would ever apply to me. The odds were against it, after all. Then, after a blood test at age 46, I became one of those people.
And so, my life has changed. I still enjoy the same things I always have – my beautiful and wonderful soulmate, Marilyn, and music, and walks in the woods, and cheap Asian food at strip malls, and movies in which a giant reptile threatens an entire city.
But I also have a new reality that intrudes, one where mutant B lymphocytes threaten my entire body, and one which requires becoming accustomed to unfamiliar and intimidating territory. My spleen and lymph nodes are swollen and my neck sometimes looks like that of a chipmunk storing too many nuts; bothersome nodes in my left pelvic area are a constant reminder that something is wrong with my body. Over time my immunity has been degraded and I have had to rely more on antibiotics to shake infections that once gave me no pause. I have also experienced the joys of autoimmune hemolytic anemia, of which there are none, which is a scary condition in which the body destroys its own red blood cells, and which leads to fatigue.
My CLL has had more than a physical impact. It has been quite an education -- both in terms of what I have learned about my ability to cope with what once was unthinkable, and in terms of navigating the almost freakishly contradictory world of CLL management and treatment. Needless to say, only a fool treads there without getting the lay of the land; too many local doctors are simply clueless, and even the experts can disagree. I do not claim to have it all figured out, and I expect that I never will, but I am doing my best, and I hope some of my thoughts can be of use to you.
So, if sharing my journey helps you along the way, it will have been my pleasure, something green and growing in this hard, new landscape. We help each other as we can, and this is why we have a vibrant CLL community of websites, forums, and blogs (see links below). The end of the circle is the start of the circle. What goes around comes around.
Writing has been in my blood longer than CLL. I am a former newspaper reporter and editor and co-author with Marilyn of two humor-trivia books, Disco Nixon and Rambo Reagan. Marilyn and I met at the University of California at Santa Cruz and now live in the red rock country of Northern Arizona . . . CLL Diary has been featured in CR, the magazine of the American Association for Cancer Research, and in Family Practice Management, a publication of the American Academy of Family Physicians. Besides writing about CLL, I helped establish CLL Forum, one of the largest discussion groups for patients and caregivers.
As we patients eventually learn, CLL is not a one-size-fits-all disease. Some cases are indolent, some progressive, some quite aggressive. Prognostic tests can give us a much better idea of what type of CLL we are dealing with. Knowledge is power, and I believe patients should have these tests and know what they mean. They do not provide a complete picture, and sometimes clinical symptoms tell a different story than one might expect from the results, but they are important tools that can help determine the when and what of treatment.
Here are the tests: IgVH mutational status, FISH, ZAP-70 (as done at a research institution such as UC San Diego, not a commercial lab), and CD38.
My tests indicate a progressing disease. I am IgVH unmutated and ZAP-70 positive, as measured at UCSD. I developed an 11q deletion per FISH in 2006, which disappeared in 2012 for some mysterious reason, giving way to a 13q deletion. I am CD38 positive now, despite having been CD38 negative for years.
Given my tender age, I will always be navigating treatment options if I want to have any hope of living a normal life span. Knowing my test results helps me plan ahead, and knowing the possible end point in my battle with CLL helps me plan what treatments make the most sense, and in what order. Like many CLLers, I am encouraged by the progress being made by new drugs such Ibrutinib and ABT-199; not to mention the news that T-cells can be supercharged to wipe out the CLL -- in much the same ferocious way that macrophages went after my red cells during hemolysis with AIHA.
The "when and what" of treatment is a subject of great debate among CLL experts as well as patients and local doctors. I tend to take a conservative approach, ever aware of the fact that overall survival in CLL depends not just on the effectiveness of your first treatment. What you do for an encore -- your ability to respond to treatment again, and then again -- may determine how long you get to stand on the stage. The late CLL expert Dr. Terry Hamblin once wrote that CLL is a war of attrition, and I am ever mindful that such wars are won, if they can be won, slowly.
Whether my decisions ultimately are proved wise will be written in these pages. I began using single-agent rituximab (Rituxan) in 2004, adding the steroid methylprednisolone in March 2007 to combat AIHA. In October 2007, after a severe AIHA relapse that left me steroid refractory, I was treated with Rituxan + cyclophosphamide, vincristine, and prednsione (R-CVP). In January 2009, when AIHA and hemolysis of red blood cells returned, I had Rituxan + cyclophosphamide and dexamethasone (R-CD). I used this a few times to control the condition, with shorter and shorter periods until AIHA relapse. Starting in February 2010 I used Arzerra (ofatumumab) and Revlimid (lenalidomide), and then for a year and a half maintained control of the disease -- and the AIHA -- with Revlimid alone. Alas, the Revlimid came at a high price in terms of blood clotting issues, and as of 2012 I was treated with bendamustine and rituximab, which gave me a CR in the marrow and blood, leaving some swollen lymph nodes behind.
2013 is turning out to be my most challenging year yet, with the arrival of Richter's Transformation in April. Up to 10% of CLL patients can expect to develop Richter's, in which some of the CLL clones mutate into a more dangerous B cell lymphoma. Richter's is fatal in some 50% of cases, but it also can be beaten with chemotherapy and stem cell transplant. Read my latest posts for updates on my experience.
My best advice to patients is to gather all the facts you can about your CLL and then think ahead and plan ahead. Develop a long-term strategy, but expect to have to roll with the punches. And don't be rushed by doctors, family, or anyone else into a decision you are not comfortable with: Treating CLL is almost never an emergency. Take the time to learn and reflect, and then go with your intuition.
There are no guarantees that your choices will work out, of course, but at least you can rest assured that you put your heart and soul into making them. That sort of effort is the effort that can, with luck, beat cancer.
It's a peace sign, or a V for victory, not sure which
Quotes I Like
"The thing in life is not to know all the answers but rather to ask the right questions." -- Anonymous
"Hope is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out." -- Vaclav Havel
"The man who never alters his opinion is like standing water, and breeds reptiles of the mind." -- Blake
"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us." -- E.M. Forster
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy." -- Anne Frank
“Panic is a projection that is not real. We are not just our fears. Our fears do not necessarily determine our future. This is significant.” -- Greg Anderson, lung cancer survivor
"I had a choice to make when they said I was going to die. I could chose to live the rest of my life dying, or I could chose to live life until I die. And I chose to live life'. -- Anonymous cancer patient
"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." -- Soren Kierkegaard
"It's always something. If it's not one thing, it's another." -- Roseanne Rosannadanna
Either way, we'll be remembered...
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Yesterday I bookmarked something in my Bob Goff devotional, *Live in Grace,
Walk in Love, *that I wanted to explore in my writing. This morning I
started l...
Intro To My Story
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This is the story of my finding out I had an incurable and lethal form of
leukemia. It starts in early 2002. I've been lucky, as I've lived more than
twelv...
Research Plug!
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Hey there everyone,
Hope is a super powerful medicine - for both patients and their doctors. I
am an advocate of clinical trials because in the 9 years I...
ICU
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The IvG was infused, but the red blood cells continue to fall and the
source has been identified as a leaking spleen. His clotting factors are
worse than l...
Recent Walks
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This old blog lists my John o'Groats to Land's End Walk in 2009 and may be
of use to others undertaking a similar walk.
There is also a record here of a se...
2 years of normal life
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7 Oct 2013 marked my 2nd year post stem cell transplant, and 2 yrs of CLL
free life.
I am very blessed to be still alive. Have not been updating and hope ...
More side effects from trial
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I'm still on the GS-1101 (CAL-101) trial, but I've been having some
problems. I've developed cataracts in both of my eyes. This can be
related to steroid...
Cancer Networks and Their Value
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Here is an article written by David Haas whose blog is located at Hass Blagg
Cancer Networks and Their Value
Few things in life are as tragic as a cancer di...
Covid Saliva Testing - Cheaper is Better
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Saliva testing for Covid-19 may just be better than nasal swabs and cheaper
too. It's preliminary, but Yale University has published a letter in *The
Ne...
December 3, 2018 - The Recreation Floor
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Yesterday and today Claire and I have had the opportunity to explore a part
of Memorial Sloan-Kettering we hadn’t encountered during my earlier
hospitali...
I’m Baaack!
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I have been away too long and I apologize. This is the longest I have been
away from the blog since I started it in 2008. My Mail program on my Mac
has b...
Job Redux and the Third Chapter|
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0 people like this. The downturn in the economy has done us a favor in a
strange and back-handed fashion. As many of us boomers watched our
retirement acco...
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